The songs say this is the most wonderful time of the year. Unfortunately, it is also the time of the year when the harsh realities hit you like a ton of bricks. You are living with an addict. There is no getting away from it. The sneaking out for just an hour on New Year’s day to spend time with a friend and then coming back looking completely gazed. The change in mood, personality, the highs and lows are right there…..you can’t escape by going to work during this period. It is in your face every day of the holidays. You put on a good front for your friends and family but you feel like someone punched you in the stomach. I am not telling this story to make you feel worse about the holidays. Just to realize that you are not alone if this is what you are feeling. The good news…..it can change! This Christmas is a good one in our family- sobriety is in the air! It is a completely different environment and the “real” person is shining through. I have many angels and friends to thank for sticking with me. It is truly a time of gratitude. Thank you to FGTA and Parents Forever for your inspiration over the past 8 to 10 years.